emergency room

10:13 AM

i had to go to the emergency room to get a script. at 7 in the morning on sunday.

i emailed lots of people asking them to email michael moore but only half of them said theyd take the 5 minutes to email him for me. the more emails the more he will think of addressing the situation and supporting me in my struggle just to get my perscription. I mean i've been subjected to all the degrading humiliating bullshit just because I'm in pain! what kind of country is this? My condition is well documented. they have no legal grounds to deny me my treatment. let alone belittle my condition and insult me and then write on a fax "very rude". I wasn't being rude I'm just defending myself against some fascist priq with an ego problem. this is what happened.

I call my pharmacy. they fax the request to my doctor. then my doctor takes 3 days just to answer a simple fax. this happens every single month. I call the pharmacy, then they fax the requst. Then I have to call my doctor and leave a message that "i called the pharmacy they sent you the fax" then they say "well we havnt recieved it yet" so then I call the pharmacy again to tell them that they say they havnt recieved the fax yet. every month. I have to call them back and forth back and forth just to get them to do their job. now because its christmas and everythings closed its a problem because I have to get my medication filled after christmas and before new years so I had to get it filled firday. I just had to because of the holidays.

so my doctors nurse calls me and says she'll fill the script but she hasnt got the fax. so I get Regan to drive me over to the pharmacy and get the manager to garentee that the fax has been sent on camera. then we drive clear over to my doctors office to show them the tape that the manager says they sent the fax.

so i sit and wait to calmly explain the situation and that I just need my scripts filled.

Then some doctor I've nevet seen before says "you came in here and caused a scene" then I explained to him that "that was SIX MONTHS AGO and the the reason I caused a scene is because my doctor wasn't doing his job and that my specialist requested an MRI and for 6 months I waited and finally I told my doctor that if I didn't get my MRI soon that I was going to turn him into the state. and WAH la within THAT WEEK I got my MRI. I could've had cancer" then he interupts me and condescendingly says "you dont have cancer" belittling me in front of my girlfriend and making it clear that he has absolutely no respect for the condition i suffer from. So I said "well I could've had cancer considering my father just died from cancer and my grnadmother on both sides have cancer ad that every single one of my grandmas 17 brothers and sisters all died from cancer.

then he cuts me off again and throws some piece of paper down in front of me and starts lecturing me about how "I've been getting my scripts filled too early." SO I look at the paper and I try to explain to him that "well that first date that I had to get t filled early was because my father just DIED FROM CANCER and that I had to get it filld early because I would be out of town on the date that I usually get it filled" and that the last two months Ive needed to get them filled slightly early (we're talking just 2 to 3 days early nothing alarming) is because of the weather and how it effects my condition so I have to take slightly more." then he just rudely says "well you can get it filled on the 3rd" to which I go into panic mode and try to explain to him the severity of my condition and that he can't do that"

then Regan starts walking up with the camera and I grab the camera and ask him to "repeat what he just said on camera" and he says "I already said what I said" then he starts walking off and tells the nurses to call the cops!

ALL I WANT IS MY FUCKING MEDICATION GOD FUCKING DAMN JUST WRITE THE FUCKING SCRIPT MOTHER FUCKER!

so then regan starts dragging me out of the place before the cops can get there and as I'm leaving I yell "you people need to go back to medical school and learn ethics" and as I'm about to leave I hear these nurses start giggling. so I yelled "what the hell is so funny" and get them on tape giving me dirty looks. total fucking slime balls. There's more to this story. Ill have it posted on youtube soon enough. I'm turning them into the state. they're going to lose their medical license I swear. I'm not the kind of person that just takes being treated like shit. and for no reason. There is absolutely no reason or right for them to just deny me my medication. No right at all. and I have a witness and video evidence of them acting completely without ethics so they don't have a leg to stand on.

all of this for no reason at all. just because they have a personal prejudice of my appearance or because they don't like having to actually do anything for their patients. They'll regret treating me like this. I promise you.

the doctors refused my medication due to "protocol"

doctors = robotic agents of the health care industry

now because I told the doctor he was being unethical and asked him to repeat what he just said on camera he wrote "VERY RUDE" on a fax to the pharmacy and now my doctor is refusing to see me when he knows that I cant go anywhere else because all the other clinics are backed up and aren't seeing anymore patients.even though my condition is well documented and proven legitimately serious and untreatable the only recomendations they have are pain meds. and now my doctor has cut me off of them. If I had heart problems could he just cut me off of my heart pills knowing I have no other doctors to get the script from and knowing that that's the only treatment? but because it's "narcotics" he can? even though thats the only treatment?

Calliing Michael Moore? where are you dude? Ive emailed and emailed you. I really wish you would email him and notify him of this atrocity.

mike@michaelmoore.com

just thought you folks should know. all you "health care is a privilege not a right" people out there are holding a gun to my head right now. and you're about to pull the trigger.

just like how all you gas guzzling fast food wal mart shoppers out there are killing Iraqis and destroying the planet. because you have a fucking oppinion. thats all my life is worth to those fucks. a flashing thought. shrugged shoulders, a penny saved. if even that.

without my meds I am very liable to go into shock when my condition goes untreated for a day. the pain of my condition plus the withdrawls from the meds and this shitty weather is too much for my body to sustain.

so this is why I went ahead and took my camera to the doctors office that one time. just to show people that Mike wasn't lying. and I put it on youtube for everyone to see and I got comments like "You want ME to pay YOUR doctor bills!??" and I sent the link to Mike and emailed him a hundred times through a hundred different avenues and all I expected was a personal aknowledgement from him that I took him up on his challenge to not be afraid and get the word out there and alienated myself from my piers. And never heard one word from him. Not even a 'get well soon' card with a stamped signature.

but then he puts one of my youtubeings on his page?

basically told us all to stick out our necks and then fed us to the insurance lawyers, Sorta like when Bush sr. told the southern Iraqis to over throw Saddam and then didnt offer a penny to help.

asshole. just like Al Gore. taking real issues that we're all stuck with and turning it into a buck.

Then every press meeting I see Mike do he's "eat fruits and veggies." like al gore saying that greenhouse carbon monoxide global warming is all our fault too. "if we ate better then we'd be healthier" well sure thats true for a lot of fat lazy americans out there but what about us folks that have been in car accidents / or are struck with cancer. or are just born with illnesses? and the movies about the insured. it doesnt even go into how truly fucking horrifying it is in some of htese government sanctioned hospitals are and how degrading it is to have to sit in one of them and how the arabic doctor acts like an arrogant priq and how people in pain that are asking for relief are always red flagged for being potential substance abusers.

just more chicken shit typical american bullshit.

if you're in the bay area Im playing at the retox tonight.

just thought id throw this out there for those at home needing something to do.

enjoy. tax free.




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the one thing i like about christmas is that ou go outside and its really quiet out. You can hear the wind. there's not all this busy busy shit going on. You can feal that there's less tension in the air and that everyones sorta calm.

You go outside and everythings closed. Its like a storm came through and the town was suddenly abandoned. No lights, no traffic, no planes, no trains, just a nation at peace. Why we think this kind of behavior should be reserved for just one day is beyond me.

this may be why he stands mute on global warming.

ask australians if global warming is real.

ask californians about chem trails

ask North Africans about their lakes drying up and the tsunami that hit Sumatra

ask people in houston that used to live in new orleans.

I hate Al Gore and his ugly wife as much as the next guy. But I'm not about to just ignore the obvious and say it isn't real.

car pool. lobby for electric trains and windmill farms. ta da, planet saved.




If you really want change then embrace your fellow countrymen and vote for the national initiative so we can turn our polls into actionable intelligence. You want to impeach Cheney and Bush? Enact the national initiative. You want to stop media consolodation? enact the national initiative. VOTE FOR THE RIGHT TO VOTE With CONGRESS instead of just always FOR. You keep electing crooked politicians expecting change. thats insanity. Enact the national initiative so that we as a citizenry can have the power to hold our elected officials accountable to us. THE PUBLIC!

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I'm home. Im tired. flying into oakland airport is fucking scary. You look out the window and you see nothing but water getting closer and closer. Its like that scene in "cast away". it isnt until right before you land that you see any land at all.


something weird happened last night. I was telling my mom about how Jesus was actually a sun god and it wasn't until King James came along that he became humanized. And to my surprise my mother totally freaked out and got all superstitious and had a worried look and did her best to convince me that Jesus was human. Which is totally weird cuz my mom has never been out right religious. in fact she bases everyones personality on astrology. so it was really odd to me that she wouldnt know what I was talking about and that she would get all defensive about it.

Im fucking beat. I got up at like 6 which is 4 my time and rushed to the airport carrying 4 bags. slept a lil on the plane. after i got off the plane i got outside for a quick smoke and asked this guy for a light who just happened to be the guy sitting next to me on the plane. we got to shootin the shit and he turned out to be a musician from austin. i gave him my myspace addy and invited him to my show on the 27th. he emailed me just a moment ago. seems like a stand up guy.

I was telling Regan about him after she picked me up. I was like "he turned out to be a musician. we coulda been socializing the whole time". He was out cold though. Sittin on the plane when I woke up I looked to my right and he was fast asleep with his mouth kinda hangin open a lil facing right at me. it was kinda funny. He's gotta big ol beard.

anyways. I'm off to the in-laws to trade some gifts and watch regans niece freak out over what Santas brought her. shes two so I'm sure shes got stars in her eyes.

mary chrismas everybody

dont listen to old hack though what do I know.

he says instead of the civil war we should've done what lincoln wanted to do which was ship all the blacks back to Africa.

CRISPUS ATTUCKS mother fucker! blacks have been here since DAY FUCKING ONE of the creation of this country. So, "hey thanks for providing free labor for us for 200 years so we could become a wealthy nation. You can go back to Africa now"

WHAT...THE.... FUCK!!!!!

what we should've done instead of fight in the civil war is just gave the blacks equal citizenship. and APPRECIATE THEIR CONTRIBUTION!

Ive been telling you people and telling you...

first the plane sat there for an hour cuz of the rain. I was already needing a ciggerette. and I could tell half the other passengers did to by the coughs and tapping sounds of ainxiousness. so we finally take off then the captain keeps scareing us that are just going to LA to catch another plane there saying "well we're gonna land in bout 30 minutes and the plane to kansas city leaves in 45 minutes so youll be fine". "well we're gonna land in about 20 minutes and your plane leaves in 15 minutes so you should be able to make it".

But then when we got to LA X the plane hadn't even arrived yet. In fact it didn't show up for a whole nother hour. Luckily I seen a kid that had some dip so I tapped him on the shoulder and asked for a dip and he kindly obliged me. He was with a few other guys and they were all wearing "marine corp" t shirts and camo back packs so naturally I asked "so you guys are in the corp" and they proudly said "yea" and so I shot the shit with them a little bit about my thoughts on our military and I asked them about their pay and if the rumors that boot camp was shortend and they laughed at me and said hell no. I was wearing my army jacket and bag as I always do in cold weather and they asked me if I was in the army and I said No that I've got health problems. I mentioned MIke Gravel to them and when I told tem about how he ended the draft the one kid that was the most gung ho of the bunch said "wait he's against the draft?" and I explained why I thought it was best that we don't have a draft but we both agreed that countries like france and spain where they have 2 year mandatory service time was a good idea and would be good for America.

We sorta bumped heads a little about the Iraq war when one of them said "they've got it coming to them" to which I explained that well If someone invaded us we'd defend ourselves too." then he said something that made me REALLY bite my tongue. he said that in boot camp that they showed them a moto (motivation) film that was expressing how "if you feel remorse for your enemy?" then theyd show clips of 911. thesepoor kids were from the smallest towns of America. The kind of towns that dont have local news. that only have farm reports on their TV. These porr kids man. stuck out there in no mans land and then in training told by their leaders that 911 is why we're in Iraq. Its just really sad. But I let them know without saying that I appreciate their service and that I respect the military I just wish they'd stop giving all of our military budget to weapons manufactures and instead take care of them like they're supposed to.

That was one thing they said that also bugged me. One of the guys was a legistics guy and he was talking about the tomahawk missle and how he described it waslike he was playing a video game. it's just so strange to me that these kids have no empathy for their enemy at all. They're not totally ignorant though. When I brought up Iran they definately understood the ramifications of what going to war with Iran means and they were not at all in favor of it. oh and they all said they hated Bush which made me feel a little better.

So we finally got on the plane and a guy that was eaves dropping on my conversation with "the troops" sat by me and we had a stimulating conversation all the way there where I informed him about how Our presidents grandfather instigated world war 2 by laundering money for Hitler. and about how we're losing the war of global economics because Americans are stuck in the past thinking they can win any fight just by killing people. It was a good conversation. He invted me to stay with him and his friends next time I'm in LA and I'll probablly take him up on that seeing as I've got shows to play down there that I havnt been able to make happen yet because of not yet having a place in LA where I can stay for free.

Thats the short and skinny of it. well I'm in kansas city now. visiting the family. Going back home on christmas eve. should be a fun flight. ugh...



the media is owned by the established powers that be. the sooner the internet becomes more casual and television dies off the sooner we can start to see real progress in this country because the media is brainwashing americans into thinking they're powerless. every day they talk from the left and the right about how we're all pwoerless when nothing could be further from the truth. All we have to do is unify and all of these problems will be solved. the only way we can unify though is to enact the national initiative so that our thoughts can be counted as legal representation of our nations stances on the issues that effect our lives

my girlfriend came home from the mall saying that she saw a "free people" dress for a hundred and 50 dollars that was made in china.

I found this on free peoples official blog. Its really disgusting and shameful. total propaganda filth to generate sympathy for free peoples exploitation of chinese workers trapped in sweat shop factories.

it reads:

Meet Kit Yee. She works for one of the factories we work with in Hong Kong and visited our office last week...
It was an awesome opportunity to get to know each other, and to work
hand-in-hand with our designers and production team.
She saw a lot of Philadelphia during her stay, including a visit to Franklin Fountain on Market St. She loved the egg cream!
Here's a little message Kit Yee sent us...

6/23 3pm: I am on the flight CO099 way back to home
6/24 8pm: 15 hrs later, I am in HK international airport
Can¹t believe 5 days is just like a flash, remember all the nice and cool
people I met in Free People office, the tasty ice cream I have had, the cool
hair cut, and the surprise birthday party for Carrie!! (correct me if I
spell your name wrong. TKS!)
Haha! Seems I just have fun in Philly though I did. I need to mention
something about my hard work here!
This is really my pleasure to have chance work with all FP people in Philly.
Thanks everybody for providing me such memorable experience and especially
Lorie, Doub and my boss Andy and Joey help to arrange this wonderful trip
for me!
Hope to have chance to see you all in HK!

..

now is that just wrong or what.

"its my pleasure to work in your sweat shop"



to make and sell this garbage. thats what it is. Just pure garbage.



when you allow big business to do whatever they want they eat themselves to death and take us down with them.

fair trade. not free trade

fair tax. not a flat tax

transparent sales tax over convoluted hidden sales tax placed on business.

im no genius. if i can figure this stuff out then you should be able to as well



why Mike Gravel

7:47 PM

If you've studied the grid as much as I have then you know that what he's saying is just basically word for word what socialist minded people have been saying for a century now.

what Gravels stance on the immigration issue is SO what? and as hard as it is to swallow he's right. There's not much of anything we can do about it. he said it best on the npr debate "when the jobs are here they'll come here. When they're not they'll go home". Hes said early on that what needs to be done is to rewrite NAFTA so that it benefits the workers and not just the management.

and his tax idea isn't libertarian. It's progressive. As the debt goes down so does where you place the sales tax and how high of a rebate you get once a month for necessities. What libertarian streaks he has is that he believes in due process and privacy and Americans being allowed to make their own decisions. You could say his stance on gay marriage is libertarian.

as far as the fair tax. Its so obvious to anyone that just thinks about it for a moment. The Tax code is a complete riddled mess right? Well why is it a riddled mess? because the wealthy wrote the damn code to sneak out of paying taxes. ANd the way they get away with it is with shelters and exemptions. SO naturally the only way you're going to get people not to cheat is if you make it simple and transparent and completey abolish all exemptions. Right now the wealthy have it so that the more they earn the less they pay and the more they buy the less they pay. SO the people that support the businesses that make them wealthy never benefit from adopting their products into their lives.

and the way you mock the national initiative is really disturbing.

its so simple even a child could understand.

if congress is in the pockets of big business and there's no one in our government there to represent the needs and wants of the people then we Must become empowered to vote on the issues that matter mostly to us in order for the issues to ever be addressed.

venezulans, californians, the swiss... all do it. Why cant America? You must just not have faith in your country.

every time a major change comes about there's always plenty of people to stand around and say "it won't work"

and as far as Gravel being accountable? With a record as astonishing as his you'd really have to cherry pick to find an issue where he wasn't standing on a logical basis.

you gotta give props to this man. You just have to if you're aware as an American and you have any concept of justice and nobility,





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1:35 PM |

dinner

10:41 PM

butter milk cheese bisquits



poor chicken


chicken noodle soup



i love my kitchen

is it majority rule on who gets to be president and in the senate? well then your point is mute. Appernetly you're arguing for a fascist dictatorship being better then popular oppinion ruling..

Thats kind of odd coming from somone that claims to understand what the founding fathers were trying to insite. Washington and jefferson and adams especially were all in favor it states it clearly in the constitution.

The people should be able to change their government anytime they see fit. Well how do you change the government when you have no power? Voting for dictators that are manipulating you to get your vote when really they're an agent of your states business enterprises is meaningless.

They dont represent you. YOU represent YOU. Why do you not trust your country? why do you Want to be controlled. "those that would give up their liberty for securty deserve NEITHER!"





my girl friend has been my dietitian for years now. she looks just like that guy in the grocery store. its creepy how much syrup is in Everything

moveon

codepink

why do these folks use trannys in their videos? will someone tell me?

"its getting hard to be someone but it all woks out"





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fuck

9:32 PM |

oh bill clinton. so she gets to talk out of both sides of her mouth. If she does something wrong then He goes out and says the opposite and gets us to trust them.

Mike Gravel is right. They should have to amend the constitution since presidents are only allowed 8 years to further prevent tyranny.



I'm more comfortable seeing the rebel flag then the mexican flag. How come no one asks them about why another country's flag is ok but a flag from our own country's history is politically incorrect

fossil fool

pepperino

2:31 AM

hillary hater

3:43 AM

i hate CNN but they've got the helicopters.

here



hostage situation. Ron Paul fans are probably cheering this. A suicide bomber in America. This is a bad sign. Maybe it's a planted conspiracy to paint hill as a heroic figure in times of stress. We'll see.

corn syrup

9:02 PM



oldhacks (3 days ago)
Huckabee never served in the military. Mike Gravel saved his ass from being drafted and sent to vietnam. This entire country is in debt to Mike Gravel's courage and leadership


mengwise36 (3 days ago)
Does that mean he should be the president for as long as he lives? For that matter, what about Ralph Nader? Or anyone else who made huge contribution to humanity?





oldhacks (3 days ago)
it means what I said. We're in serious debt to Gravel. You included



mengwise36 (2 days ago)
I do owe him my gratitude. But that does not make him a president. 50% of the population, women, were never in danger of being drafted. Why should they vote for Gravel then?

oldhacks (1 day ago)
Because he'll protect a womans right to choose. unlike Ron Paul. And what about those womens sacrifice when their loved ones were drafted? Is that meaningless to you? All the families left alone at home during world war 2? 400,000 of them not ever coming back.

mengwise36 (12 hours ago)
Hold on a second. How did WW2 get in the conversation? US lost about 100,000 there. Much worse than Iraq but still a very small percentage of the population. Like I said, I appreciate Mike Gravel for ending the draft. Still what Ralph Nadre did for car safety affected Millions. If you compare impact, Ralph Nadre should be president. However, being President is not a token of reward for what the person HAVE contributed, is it?

oldhacks (17 seconds ago)
THE DRAFT. World War two drafted more men then any war in american history. the draft wasnt started until the civil war in America by the confederacy. Americans life yourself have no sense of howe hisroty plays a part in your lives. It's a shame. Im all for Ralph and his initiatives. If we had a national initaitive then he would be a direct representative of the people instead of a bunch of businessman telling me what I can and cannot have.

just "do" it

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Ron Pauls got it easy whipping these poor sacks. good thing he got all that money or he'd end up getting censored like Gravel on the democratic side. Disgusting politics this time around. Hear that audience? How many ppl in that audience are agents and plants sent out to manipulate the audience? We have to start to become aware of how deep the bullshit runs ppl.

gravel wants to give you the power to vote With congress and for all of us Americans to live as a majority in peace.

national initiative

ever watch cspan? why cant we do that from our town halls? as citizens?

why cant we vote?

wouldn't you like to be able to vote on the iraq war?

or vote to impeach bush?

or vote to switch our corrupt tax code into a totally transparent sales tax where we all pay the same?

wouldnt you like to vote to spend taxes on creating wind farms instead of killing iraqis?

read about the woman suffereage movement or the civil rights movement when badaasses like malcolm X fought to be allowed to vote in peace.

to vote man.

ron pauls not saying anything like that. hes saying. Give me you money and I'll fix the problem all by myself. When no One man can tell congress what to do. Its about every state being allowed as citizens to do as they wish and live in peace.

you might think about it.



see, Now this kid is supporting the same rogue candidate as the KKK. does that make any sense at all? When will people wake up? Im guessing they'll wake up when he doesn't get the nomination and just goes back to his office in Texas with that 10,000,000 dollars that misinformed people with good intentions gave to him because it was the trendy thing to do.

i miss that place. def original and friendliest folks . all ages illegal pirate bastard rebels made me feal right at home.



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first screw ron paul for these reasons
a) womens right to chose
b) prayer in schools? fuck that
c) using immigration to get votes? fuck that
d) not stating the obvious that we need to reinvestigate 911 because its not politacally correct? fuck that

second screw richiardson for the following reasons
a) he brags about being an ambassador under the clintons. that means he stood by and allowed the sanctions on Iraq which lead to the deaths of 500,000 women and children because of lack of food and medicine
b) hes handed new mexico over to mexico cuz "he doesn't want to split up families..meaning if one crosses the borderd their whole family should get amnesty? fuck that
c)again with bragging about being an ambassador while the clintons sold nukes to China

screw Kucinich for the following reasons
a) hes divisive
b) hes arrogant
c) he's a radical liberal which means he could never win votes in the south nor get the south and north to come together. Kucinich is about as dangerous as Lincoln in how pissed off ppl are about immigration

plenty more reasons but most importantlly the reason why you shouldn't support them is simply because they dont support you.

even if we got the folks you support elected the best they could do is be a lame duck and stop anything from getting done because they have to work with our congress.

the only way you're going to see change is if we turn around and empowerr ourselves to become lawmakers and be allowed to vote WITH our elected officials.

this is the only thing you should be preaching

ni4d.us

the national initiative.

ppl have to get past the idea that they should vote for the likely winner. that kind of thinking will get us nowhere. thats what the fairweather voters think about Hillary cuz they dont know what a monster she is.

that shits gotta stop.

when ron paul and kucinich dont get the nomination and Gravel runs independent in the general election I hope you'll come to your senses and start supporting Gravel cuz hes not self destructive. hes vigorously honest. and never NEVER should that go against him.

ron paul doesn't believe a word of it. He thinks it was ineptitude. dont lie for him and say otherwise or Im going to kick you in the face repeatedly

that being said.

loose change final cut is a very conservative effort unlike the far fetched first 2. Its very factual and backs up everything with witness' and documentation.

its a very compelling argument and I appreciate Alex Jones paying for its distribution and production, but like everything I'm poor so I just pirated it. so thanks.

watch it. Its worth it and you wont be able to argue with much. theres no remote controlled plane theories. theres no Bush family talks. Its just straight to the point and looking very deeply at the facts that absolutely need to be researched and investigated till completely exhausted until we finally come out with an honest verdict.




claude bought pizza and had a cake with the flyer printed on it for everyone. It was very giving and I was thankful as I think the crowd was as well. The show started with Stacey doing a solo set. I missed it cuz I was talking to this guy outside about antiques. Claude came out and ushered me onto the stage. We hadn't really worked out who was gonna play when so I wasn't ready. I played my traditional set and played my new one "just shoot me in the head" to end it. The crowd was real responsive and I felt pretty satisfied. Uni sang "I'll take a train" with me again.

then Chris and Mollie played. I got to listen to Chris and their backup singer kate practice one of theirs I hadn't heard before in the back which was really nice. Chris has a really original direction in their songs. I reallt envy his ability to shift rythems and abort all senses of traditional song structure. I really do. I'm gonna try and set up a show with them in the bay again. Hopefully we can get that done.

then comedian mary van note came on and did her thing. She plays the innocent pervert very well. Some great blue humor.

then oh my god. marial a la mode sang a song and did a little number. I swear that girl could melt butter. If I had to pick I'd say Marials performance was the best of the night. I really cant say what I'm really thinking cuz well.. that just wouldn't be prudent.. Let's just say It was entertaining.

Then the superstar of all superstars played. Miss UNI. Her voice is absolutley the most trained and perfected instrument I've ever heard. It really just commands the stage and effortlessly gets everyone to coalesce and absorb the moment. It's always an honeor to share the stage with her and I'm not just saying that. She really is one of the best performers San Francisco has to offer. She's on her way down to LA today with Marial. Wish them the best on their travels.

Jim bob from Ibid played a solo set of some funny songs about his momma and marial and a ford taurus. He had everyone eating out of his nerdy palms.then Ibid closed the night with some mad rhymes and hooks. we danced the night away

All in all twas a good night. met some interesting people and had some good laughs.



I've been writing about black water since the very beginning of my blog

when they stand up we'll stand down , question for blackwater , declaring Iran's revolutionary guard "terrorists" is like them declaring Blackwater terrorists





does Mexico have the same political correct policy of guilt in its creation? cuz only 15 percent of mexicans are indigenous. Which spells out genocide.


anyone study American history and actually keep it in context?









anyone ever read about how the war tribes treated their neighbors?

or does everyone believe the farce that when America was still indian territory it was a magic happy place where no one ever did anything wrong.

france allied with the indians (sort of like how Hitler allied with Japan or how Britain allied with us to invade Iraq....And that started the anti american sentiments by the tribes. That eventually led to an all out war between the eastern tribes and the Americans. We lost to France and the tribes badly at first which forced us to call to britain for more troops to protect us. Which then after beating france back into the north lead britain into declaring the Stamp act (outrageous taxes), which then lead to us saying to hell with all of you we're just going to start our own country.














happy thanks giving.
get fat , watch some sports , take a nap.

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This essay was originally published in the first issue of Monthly Review (May 1949).

Is it advisable for one who is not an expert on economic and social issues to express views on the subject of socialism? I believe for a number of reasons that it is.

Let us first consider the question from the point of view of scientific knowledge. It might appear that there are no essential methodological differences between astronomy and economics: scientists in both fields attempt to discover laws of general acceptability for a circumscribed group of phenomena in order to make the interconnection of these phenomena as clearly understandable as possible. But in reality such methodological differences do exist. The discovery of general laws in the field of economics is made difficult by the circumstance that observed economic phenomena are often affected by many factors which are very hard to evaluate separately. In addition, the experience which has accumulated since the beginning of the so-called civilized period of human history has—as is well known—been largely influenced and limited by causes which are by no means exclusively economic in nature. For example, most of the major states of history owed their existence to conquest. The conquering peoples established themselves, legally and economically, as the privileged class of the conquered country. They seized for themselves a monopoly of the land ownership and appointed a priesthood from among their own ranks. The priests, in control of education, made the class division of society into a permanent institution and created a system of values by which the people were thenceforth, to a large extent unconsciously, guided in their social behavior.

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But historic tradition is, so to speak, of yesterday; nowhere have we really overcome what Thorstein Veblen called "the predatory phase" of human development. The observable economic facts belong to that phase and even such laws as we can derive from them are not applicable to other phases. Since the real purpose of socialism is precisely to overcome and advance beyond the predatory phase of human development, economic science in its present state can throw little light on the socialist society of the future.

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Second, socialism is directed towards a social-ethical end. Science, however, cannot create ends and, even less, instill them in human beings; science, at most, can supply the means by which to attain certain ends. But the ends themselves are conceived by personalities with lofty ethical ideals and—if these ends are not stillborn, but vital and vigorous—are adopted and carried forward by those many human beings who, half unconsciously, determine the slow evolution of society.

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For these reasons, we should be on our guard not to overestimate science and scientific methods when it is a question of human problems; and we should not assume that experts are the only ones who have a right to express themselves on questions affecting the organization of society.


Innumerable voices have been asserting for some time now that human society is passing through a crisis, that its stability has been gravely shattered. It is characteristic of such a situation that individuals feel indifferent or even hostile toward the group, small or large, to which they belong. In order to illustrate my meaning, let me record here a personal experience. I recently discussed with an intelligent and well-disposed man the threat of another war, which in my opinion would seriously endanger the existence of mankind, and I remarked that only a supra-national organization would offer protection from that danger. Thereupon my visitor, very calmly and coolly, said to me: "Why are you so deeply opposed to the disappearance of the human race?"


I am sure that as little as a century ago no one would have so lightly made a statement of this kind. It is the statement of a man who has striven in vain to attain an equilibrium within himself and has more or less lost hope of succeeding. It is the expression of a painful solitude and isolation from which so many people are suffering in these days. What is the cause? Is there a way out?

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It is easy to raise such questions, but difficult to answer them with any degree of assurance. I must try, however, as best I can, although I am very conscious of the fact that our feelings and strivings are often contradictory and obscure and that they cannot be expressed in easy and simple formulas.


Man is, at one and the same time, a solitary being and a social being. As a solitary being, he attempts to protect his own existence and that of those who are closest to him, to satisfy his personal desires, and to develop his innate abilities. As a social being, he seeks to gain the recognition and affection of his fellow human beings, to share in their pleasures, to comfort them in their sorrows, and to improve their conditions of life. Only the existence of these varied, frequently conflicting, strivings accounts for the special character of a man, and their specific combination determines the extent to which an individual can achieve an inner equilibrium and can contribute to the well-being of society. It is quite possible that the relative strength of these two drives is, in the main, fixed by inheritance. But the personality that finally emerges is largely formed by the environment in which a man happens to find himself during his development, by the structure of the society in which he grows up, by the tradition of that society, and by its appraisal of particular types of behavior. The abstract concept "society" means to the individual human being the sum total of his direct and indirect relations to his contemporaries and to all the people of earlier generations. The individual is able to think, feel, strive, and work by himself; but he depends so much upon society—in his physical, intellectual, and emotional existence—that it is impossible to think of him, or to understand him, outside the framework of society. It is "society" which provides man with food, clothing, a home, the tools of work, language, the forms of thought, and most of the content of thought; his life is made possible through the labor and the accomplishments of the many millions past and present who are all hidden behind the small word “society.”

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It is evident, therefore, that the dependence of the individual upon society is a fact of nature which cannot be abolished—just as in the case of ants and bees. However, while the whole life process of ants and bees is fixed down to the smallest detail by rigid, hereditary instincts, the social pattern and interrelationships of human beings are very variable and susceptible to change. Memory, the capacity to make new combinations, the gift of oral communication have made possible developments among human being which are not dictated by biological necessities. Such developments manifest themselves in traditions, institutions, and organizations; in literature; in scientific and engineering accomplishments; in works of art. This explains how it happens that, in a certain sense, man can influence his life through his own conduct, and that in this process conscious thinking and wanting can play a part.

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Man acquires at birth, through heredity, a biological constitution which we must consider fixed and unalterable, including the natural urges which are characteristic of the human species. In addition, during his lifetime, he acquires a cultural constitution which he adopts from society through communication and through many other types of influences. It is this cultural constitution which, with the passage of time, is subject to change and which determines to a very large extent the relationship between the individual and society. Modern anthropology has taught us, through comparative investigation of so-called primitive cultures, that the social behavior of human beings may differ greatly, depending upon prevailing cultural patterns and the types of organization which predominate in society. It is on this that those who are striving to improve the lot of man may ground their hopes: human beings are not condemned, because of their biological constitution, to annihilate each other or to be at the mercy of a cruel, self-inflicted fate.

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If we ask ourselves how the structure of society and the cultural attitude of man should be changed in order to make human life as satisfying as possible, we should constantly be conscious of the fact that there are certain conditions which we are unable to modify. As mentioned before, the biological nature of man is, for all practical purposes, not subject to change. Furthermore, technological and demographic developments of the last few centuries have created conditions which are here to stay. In relatively densely settled populations with the goods which are indispensable to their continued existence, an extreme division of labor and a highly-centralized productive apparatus are absolutely necessary. The time—which, looking back, seems so idyllic—is gone forever when individuals or relatively small groups could be completely self-sufficient. It is only a slight exaggeration to say that mankind constitutes even now a planetary community of production and consumption.

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I have now reached the point where I may indicate briefly what to me constitutes the essence of the crisis of our time. It concerns the relationship of the individual to society. The individual has become more conscious than ever of his dependence upon society. But he does not experience this dependence as a positive asset, as an organic tie, as a protective force, but rather as a threat to his natural rights, or even to his economic existence. Moreover, his position in society is such that the egotistical drives of his make-up are constantly being accentuated, while his social drives, which are by nature weaker, progressively deteriorate. All human beings, whatever their position in society, are suffering from this process of deterioration. Unknowingly prisoners of their own egotism, they feel insecure, lonely, and deprived of the naive, simple, and unsophisticated enjoyment of life. Man can find meaning in life, short and perilous as it is, only through devoting himself to society.

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The economic anarchy of capitalist society as it exists today is, in my opinion, the real source of the evil. We see before us a huge community of producers the members of which are unceasingly striving to deprive each other of the fruits of their collective labor—not by force, but on the whole in faithful compliance with legally established rules. In this respect, it is important to realize that the means of production—that is to say, the entire productive capacity that is needed for producing consumer goods as well as additional capital goods—may legally be, and for the most part are, the private property of individuals.

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For the sake of simplicity, in the discussion that follows I shall call “workers” all those who do not share in the ownership of the means of production—although this does not quite correspond to the customary use of the term. The owner of the means of production is in a position to purchase the labor power of the worker. By using the means of production, the worker produces new goods which become the property of the capitalist. The essential point about this process is the relation between what the worker produces and what he is paid, both measured in terms of real value. Insofar as the labor contract is “free,” what the worker receives is determined not by the real value of the goods he produces, but by his minimum needs and by the capitalists' requirements for labor power in relation to the number of workers competing for jobs. It is important to understand that even in theory the payment of the worker is not determined by the value of his product.

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Private capital tends to become concentrated in few hands, partly because of competition among the capitalists, and partly because technological development and the increasing division of labor encourage the formation of larger units of production at the expense of smaller ones. The result of these developments is an oligarchy of private capital the enormous power of which cannot be effectively checked even by a democratically organized political society. This is true since the members of legislative bodies are selected by political parties, largely financed or otherwise influenced by private capitalists who, for all practical purposes, separate the electorate from the legislature. The consequence is that the representatives of the people do not in fact sufficiently protect the interests of the underprivileged sections of the population. Moreover, under existing conditions, private capitalists inevitably control, directly or indirectly, the main sources of information (press, radio, education). It is thus extremely difficult, and indeed in most cases quite impossible, for the individual citizen to come to objective conclusions and to make intelligent use of his political rights.

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The situation prevailing in an economy based on the private ownership of capital is thus characterized by two main principles: first, means of production (capital) are privately owned and the owners dispose of them as they see fit; second, the labor contract is free. Of course, there is no such thing as a pure capitalist society in this sense. In particular, it should be noted that the workers, through long and bitter political struggles, have succeeded in securing a somewhat improved form of the “free labor contract” for certain categories of workers. But taken as a whole, the present day economy does not differ much from “pure” capitalism.

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Production is carried on for profit, not for use. There is no provision that all those able and willing to work will always be in a position to find employment; an “army of unemployed” almost always exists. The worker is constantly in fear of losing his job. Since unemployed and poorly paid workers do not provide a profitable market, the production of consumers' goods is restricted, and great hardship is the consequence. Technological progress frequently results in more unemployment rather than in an easing of the burden of work for all. The profit motive, in conjunction with competition among capitalists, is responsible for an instability in the accumulation and utilization of capital which leads to increasingly severe depressions. Unlimited competition leads to a huge waste of labor, and to that crippling of the social consciousness of individuals which I mentioned before.

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This crippling of individuals I consider the worst evil of capitalism. Our whole educational system suffers from this evil. An exaggerated competitive attitude is inculcated into the student, who is trained to worship acquisitive success as a preparation for his future career.



I am convinced there is only one way to eliminate these grave evils, namely through the establishment of a socialist economy, accompanied by an educational system which would be oriented toward social goals. In such an economy, the means of production are owned by society itself and are utilized in a planned fashion. A planned economy, which adjusts production to the needs of the community, would distribute the work to be done among all those able to work and would guarantee a livelihood to every man, woman, and child. The education of the individual, in addition to promoting his own innate abilities, would attempt to develop in him a sense of responsibility for his fellow men in place of the glorification of power and success in our present society.

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Nevertheless, it is necessary to remember that a planned economy is not yet socialism. A planned economy as such may be accompanied by the complete enslavement of the individual. The achievement of socialism requires the solution of some extremely difficult socio-political problems: how is it possible, in view of the far-reaching centralization of political and economic power, to prevent bureaucracy from becoming all-powerful and overweening? How can the rights of the individual be protected and therewith a democratic counterweight to the power of bureaucracy be assured?

Clarity about the aims and problems of socialism is of greatest significance in our age of transition. Since, under present circumstances, free and unhindered discussion of these problems has come under a powerful taboo, I consider the foundation of this magazine to be an important public service.

i love sunsara

10:57 PM



"why are you against free speech".

she interrupts her over and over not letting her speak. as she accuses sunsara of being against free speech.

the warning

5:16 PM


think



Why is McCain and lieberman going to Iraq to campaign? Is Iraq part of the united states now? Do Iraqis get to vote on who controls them too?

bout to 6 minutes he completely explains where these bullshit numbers come from.

what does this look like to you? You know what you can do with this dollar. You can start a new business. You can buy a pack of gum. You can buy the WHITEHOUSE. You can elect and retire the entire congress. You can stop the war. You can Start a war. You can put an entire nation in poverty. You can let yourself slip into poverty. You can buy another human being from the slums of Russia. You can save the planet. You can destroy the planet.

All it takes is a little unity. And you can do anything with this dollar. They fool you into thinking you're powerless. They fool you into thinking nobody thinks like you. They fool you into thinking you have to give them your money to fit in. They fool you into listening to them Fool You! O'really/Olbermann are exactly the same. They're just pundits propagating a position. Because of Olbermann/O'really ideologies this Dollar is just a dollar. but if just .3 percent (a million people) banded together on ANYTHING this dollar all of a sudden is boundless.




Cris definitely had an impact on Washington which must've persuaded
Washington to appreciate black Americans enough to give citizenship to the blacks that worked on his farm in his will. To show those watching that all men can live together and all Americans are equal and to be judged on their personal merits

heres his wiki

civil rights march against DOJ

think

I think "hate crime" is a bad idea. its like "terrorism" "hate" its subject to spin. its open to interpretation. It just creates more divide. I love seeing people marching and demanding more rights I'm just sick of reverse racism.. Declaring a war on hate is like saying you like cheese. It means nothing. What it does do is generalize the problem which belittles the debate.

I believe in drawing a line. but where you draw that line is what generates that measures success. Do you really believe we can eliminate "Hate"... Hate?.. Well generate more love god damn it.



trains instead of cars

wind farms instead of oil fields

solar power instead of coal/nuclear energy for the home.

more jobs. more liberty

watch the real segment here




Mike Gravels comments during the Democratic Debate in Las Vegas on CNN.

Completely exposes the fraudulence behind Hillary Clinton and Barack Obama and Edwards.

please excuse the production value. I'm working with limited resources here. Step up Chip in Stand up.

http://www.gravel08.us

http://www.ni4d.us

in the name of preserving Freedom and Democracy

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baloons

8:20 PM



10,000 dollars he says. While its obviously more safe then the humvees the troops are driving.



Rudy Giuliani concedes the election he purposely loses to help the NWO place the Clintons back in power.

JOHN EDWARDS IS NOT REPEAT NOT FOR UNIVERSAL HEALTH COVERAGE!

HE'S FOR PRIVATIZED UNIVERSAL HEALTH CARE COVERAGE

HE'S FOR GIVING MEDICAID TO HUMANA!!!!

HUMANA!!!!



DID YOU WATCH SICKO????????

VOTE NO! ON EDWARDS HEALTH CARE PLAN

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the troops!

4:32 PM

I hate when I see anything that says "the troops".

they're kids. from small towns. that got conned at their high school. and are sitting in a war zone trying to tame a 3000 year old civil war that we unleashed because of our oil dependency.

crooks blathers on in a semi neo liberal fashion about what cuts are being made where and how deep while we go bankrupt murdering arabs and Iranians in Iraq.

READ

puts this in perspective

fucking assholes



there's a bomb in that burrito



bout 4 minutes where it starts getting good.

..I was in denial leading all the way up to shock and awe. I thought "oh they're just bullying him. We're not going to go to war witrh a country that had nothing to do with anything that happend in 2001.

Now I find myself thinking that same bullshit. I really do. Cuz I just want to believe that my country will get itself back on course and we'll get a more fair economy when we get rid of republicans.

thats whaht I was raised on. But now we don't have democrats anymore. Before Bill Clinton we had democrats. It was democrats that exposed Ronald Reagan. They didn't impeach him because Reagan was such a brilliant propagandist that his approval ratings were through the roof even after being caught having OK'd the inciting of war between Iran and Iraq.

we're almost out of the 80s. I can feel it. It doesn't matter who our leaders are. the people are waking up. the more and more the internet merges with tv the more people that aren't aware can have the opportunity to become aware.

I wish Youtube hadn't censored the war footage.

Youtube is going the way mTV went. not everyone on myspace can remember an Mtv that was actually grass roots incorporated

and sadly youtube is beginning to become strangled by the beast of celebrity.